Thursday, February 24, 2005

Simple Sentiments

For those of you who didn't know, I hate listening to the radio. I hate it. Hate it, hate it, absolutely hate it. I can't stand the inane chit-chattering of tong kosong DJs, I hate the stoooooopid radio ads (altho once in a while you get a few priceless gems *winkz*), and I will never (NEVER!!) be able to fully express just how thoroughly I detest their musical selections.

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Once upon a time, there used to be a rock-a-licious radio station where the DJs didn't love the sound of their own voices, the ads were amazingly low, the callers were at least semi-intelligent/coherent and the music was good. It was called Classic Rock. Unfortunately, as with all good things, it came to an unfortunate demise, due to lack of sponsorship/ad pulls. Alas! The sacrfice of GOOD entertainment in the name of profitability. Boooooo!!
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R&B. Ugh!

Hitz.fm, MixFM, Era, Radio 4, THR, whatnot. I would flip through the stations just to find something I could bear listening to, whatever the station. More often than not, I'd flip though the whole frequency range twice over before giving up in maddening frustration and switching the *#*%* damned thing off.. only to switch it back on again bare seconds later in the vain hope that I might find something halfway decent to listen to this time around. All in vain, I tell you.

It's worse when popular music goes through a phase. A while back there was a Rap/R&B/Gangsta/I'm-Tough-Black-Music-You-Bitches-Worship-At-The-Altar-Of-My-Bling phase. God, what the fuck was that about?!!! And then not only does ONE station (read: hitz.fm) play them on an unending loop, but in a bid to be as 'cool' as hitz.fm, ALL the other stations play the fecking same thing over and over again as well! Aaaaaargh! Have these people never heard of VARIETY?!!! The only station I find halfway bearable is Red104.9. Which is why I invested in a kick-ass player (best I could afford anyways), so I could listen to songs I liked while I drove. I'm in control baby!!!!

Ahem.

Hence, after losing *ahem* misplacing my CD case for a week after the car came out of the workshop, I cringingly gave in to the inevitable. When I say I need music, I really need music y'all, and I figured it was worth a tiny risk .. and y'know what? It wasn't too bad. I still, from time to time, was forced to do the quick station-shuffle, but all in all, it wasn't too bad. Thankfully, I'm now able to give it up seeing as how I've recovered my precious cache. Aaaah, you never know what you had until you've lost it. Too true. :o)

But on my short week listening to public radio, I came across this song. The melodics are so simple, the lyrics so juvenile. Yet, its simplicity is its charm.

It reminds me of being a teenager in love. I suppose the song is about a teenager in love. Heck, I only just watched the video for it this afternoon and the singer IS a kid still! And the song: the promises so naive, the sentiments so .. uncomplicated that they could actually be taken at face value. It reminds me of being in love when I was in school. What did I know of love then? Ptish! Everything about love seemed so simple then, not the way love is as an adult now, so much more complicated.

Yet, I listen to the song and its amazing simplicity stands out. The song is certainly not shallow for it, and its simplicity strikes at something profound in me. Maybe love is not meant to be complicated at all, and maybe love should be as simple as this.

Maybe love is.


I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

~ Beautiful Soul - by Jesse McCartney


And this song is dedicated to Min, who has one of the most beatifullest souls I know. *huuuugz*

~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~

Feeling:

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Love Is In The Air

So, Valentine's was a week or so ago, and love is still in the air. Well, it's true for me, regardless of the date. I also think that Valentine's Day is, in this modern age, an absolutely horrifying commercialist celebration, a day for opportunistic businessfolk to glut and grow fat on mindless consumerism, but that is a different story altogether. Besides, I don't need ONE specific day to celebrate my love. I do it every day.

Also, I think she said it rather well, so I'll leave this at that. Hee hee.

Right now, I'm feeling moony. I like that. :o)

And it was all, well today anyway, triggered by a song. It's bittersweet, but so beautiful.

And I'd love nothing more than to share it with you.

Be well, and be loved.

*HUUUGZ*


Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way to turn back time
Can I turn back time?

What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name

It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

I mourn for those who never knew you

~ Rose of Sharyn ~ by Killswitch Engage



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Feeling:

Monday, February 21, 2005

Jas 101 - A Crash Course

Stealing a page off her, who stole a page off her. *winkz*

Jas 101 - A Crash Course

1. My mum wanted to call me Stephanie ..

2. .. but I ended up being named after Jaclyn Smith, my dad's favourite (original) Angel.

3. So my mum got her say in it by changing the pronunciation, so my name is pronounced with an 's' (or two) in lieu of a hard 'c'.

4. I was born on the last day of September (which is NOT the 31st!!!), 1980 ..

5. .. which resulted in 80's Rock, Cyndi Lauper, and Wham! being my first exposure to music. One of my earliest memories is sitting in my mother's car singing along to "Wake Me Up (Before You Go-Go)". Yes. Amazingly, music still developed into an eventual passion for me.

6. Sesame Street.

7. AND Moonwalker, the Movie. *rolleyes*

8. When I was six, my mother decided that her children should be prodigies of some sort, possessing half her genes and all, and decided that it would be nice to hear strains of classical piano tunes permeating the halls of our house. Therefore, she carted us (me and my sisters) off to piano lessons.

9. I hated it. I fucking hated it. Saturday mornings used to be Times of Torture. It didn't help that my teacher was a woman with a wicked temper who stood over me and the keyboard with a wooden 30cm ruler and would *SMACK!!* me across the knuckles when my wrists drooped.

10. Imagine what happened the year she got pregnant!! It was then that I refused to leave the house for piano lessons, and when my mother bodily carried me to class, I refused to do a single thing beyond sitting with my arms tightly folded across my chest. She gave up after three episodes of wilfulness.

11. However, piano classes resumed when I was 13, with Miss Wendy, who awakened in me the passion for creating music. Oh, she was one of my first REAL teachers, and I went six grades in three years.

12. I spent 11 years in an all-girls government school, CBN...

13. .. and did NOT turn out socially inept for it, rather it instilled a confidence in me that I might not have gotten anywhere else.

14. I wish I was as smart and as beautiful as Min,

15. and Ben,

16. and Nadia, and Intan, and Anne, Hanim, Azie, Sharm and Amanda...

17. ...all of whom make up the GirlyGirls (!) who taught me all I know of beauty, poise and grace, in every sense of the word. *hugz*

18. I went to Taylor's after high school, to do my A-Levels, where I met a whole bunch of people I couldn't imagine living without.

19. Like Fong, who taught me compassion,

20. and Del, who taught me faith,

21. Don, who taught me strength,

22. and Nadia T., who taught me patience.

23. If there ever was to happen a wonky sort of famine, I could subsist on char koay teow and chocolate mousse alone.

24. I think.

25. My most expensive purchase to date: my beautiful beautiful Maton 12-String Acoustic.

26. I want to race track, but have no money, so it'll have to remain a dream.

27. For now.

28. Cars, I mean. Cars.

29. I did gymnastics for three years in primary school. I had to give it up when I grew too tall.

30. I am somewhere between 5'8" and 5'9"..

31. .. and weigh 67kg. Well, now anyways. Yes, I have put on a bit of weight, so I am now decidedly pudgy...ier. Pudgier.

32. But it's okay, because I am happy. I lose weight when I am unhappy due to lack/absence of appetite, and I'd rather be pudgy..ier and happy than thin and miserable.

33. And I have Faiz to thank for that, who taught me what it is to love, and be loved in return. :o)

34. I could go through life blind, but I never want to live without music; I would wither and die. A good composition is literally capable of moving me to tears with its sheer beauty.

35. On my bedside tables are candles, a mountain of books,

36. a telephone, a stash of chocolates,

37. a dictionary AND thesaurus; all the things you'll ever need in life.

38. is the plate number on my car, which is 8 years old but I won't get rid of because I love it soooooooo much!

39. Something else I love sooooooo much is my three-and-a-half year old brother, Fareed. Life has never been the same since he arrived, he makes all of us so happy.

40. But the thought of having my own children scares the bejeezuz out of me. Commitments don't get larger or more irreversible than that!

41. 31 Flavours for me please. None of that Haagen Daaz shite.

42. Dealing with people drives me bonkers. I detest having to pander to other people's mengada-ness, therefore I will never work in sales and/or marketing. Ugh.

43. Machines. Give me machines that don't talk back any day. *winkz*

44. That's why I chose to study Mechanical Engineering, so I (hopefully!) don't have to work behind a desk. Much.

45. But what I really wanted to study was Zoology,

46. because I feel a compassion for animals, which are trapped by circumstances, that I don't feel for humans who, I believe, cause their own misery.

47. The only exception being babies and children. Good little children, say under the age of nine, who behave themselves, eat their greens and don't talk back.

48. The snotty little brats we should feed to insane, hungry, canniballistic gorillas.

49. *sings* All you need is love, all you need is loove, all you need is looo-ooo-ooo-oooove... ala Moulin Rouge!. *winkz*

50. Which, I think, was a brilliant movie. Baz Luhrmann had a vision alright. I love his 'trilogy'.

51. My Little Pony, Jem and the Holograms, Care Bears.

52. I played gamelan in high school. It was kickass cool.

53. My favorite flowers are madonna lillies, jasmines, prostitute flower (hehe.. tuberose) and roses. In that order. :o)

54. I like perfumes which are 'open-ended' scents. Nothing too sweet, heavy and cloying. My favourites are rose-based.

55. Blue Bunny - Bunny Tracks, Boom Boom Brownie, Super Fudge Brownie. Yumma-yumma. Aaaah! Screw 'Lite'!! *grinz*

56. I have a sweet tooth. *G*

57. Melanie Rawn.

58. Dragons. I have an incurable fascination with dragons. I blame "Flight of the Dragons".

59. 500 Miles, The Proclaimers. The most romantic song I've ever heard.

60. I'm a realist-romantic. An internet quiz told me so. *winkz*

61. I'm also stubborn.

62. I don't know where I get it from.

63. My mother taught me more than I have the wisdom to understand. She's irreplaceable.

64. Famous Amos. Chocolate Chip Macadamia. *drool*

65. Macadamias. *drool*

66. I wish I had a green thumb.

67. I love my sister and brothers. :o)

68. Cherries. Fresh cherries, maraschino cherries, cherry pies, cherry cheesecakes. Cherries Jubilee, Bordeaux Cherry Chocolate. Cherries.

69. I love rock-climbing. Artificial rock-climbing. Not very superb at it, but I love it.

70. Silverhawks, Transformers, Voltron.

71. Before I turn 60, I must a) get a navel ring, b) go skydiving, c) get a scuba divers' licence, d) travel the world.

72. One out of four ain't too bad. I've got 35 years and a bit to go.

73. Land a job I'll be happy at. If it pays well, it'll be a bonus.

74. Sun, sun, sun, sand, sea and surf. I am a born beach baby. I believe I was an iguana in a past life.

75. If I were an animal, I'd be a cat. Independent, keeping to myself, apathetic, and when I want to manja I'll come looking for you. *lol*

76. I love to bake. It relieves stress. My best? Pineapple tarts, my grandmother's recipe.

77. A perfect quiet day? Sprawled under a tree on a cool day, reading. No ants/mosquitoes. Or sprawled in the sun, on a beach, dozing, working on a nice tan. No sleazy pot-bellied mat sallehs offering me RM300 or mosquitoes. Yeesh.

78. I am slighty lactose intolerant. Ice-cream doesn't count. It's not milk. It's ice-cream. ;oP

79. Johnny Rzeznik is the Most Beautiful Man on Earth.

80. And the Goo Goo Dolls are my favouritest band.

81. Mike Melanin inspired me to pick up drumming..

82. .. and I've already achieved Grade 5!

83. .. in one-and-a-half years! *grinz* Sorry, a bit proud of myself there if I do say so meself. :o)

84. I periodically suffer from insomnia. Couldn't you tell? :o)

85. Shiraj's Honey Chicken. Mmmmmmmm ....

86. Black Adder. Fawlty Towers. And recently, Father Ted. :o)

87. Pink. The colour.

88. *warbles* Diaaaaaamonds are a girl's best frieeeeeeeeend! *G* It doesn't just end there though. lolz. My favourite gems are sapphires. And I favour princess cuts.

89. I have been bringing home stray mogs since I was five. We currently have three cats, which are not mogs, but it's the only thing that keeps me from bringing home lost kittens.

90. I can't wait to start living on my own.

91. I never have enough clothes.

92. And I will never own a credit card. No willpower. Not in that department.

93. I believe in karma. What goes around, comes around.

94. I believe in the Natural Law, and I believe it rules Supreme. Some people call it God, some people don't.

95. And I believe in Absolute Good, and Absolute Truth.

96. But I also believe chocolates are the only vitamins anyone ever needs to maintain excellent mental health, so maybe I don't know what I'm talking about.

97. Or do I?

98. Perfect pizza topping: pineapples, mushrooms, green peppers, turkey ham, pineapples, black olives, tomato slices, pineapples, onions, cheeeeeeeeeese, chilli flakes, and oh, have I said pineapples? *winkz*

99. Lay's Salt & Vinegar *pucker!*

100. God Bless the Internet.

101. World Peace, and an end to World Hunger.

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Bless y'all. Toodles.
XOXOXO

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Feeling:

Friday, February 18, 2005

That 70's Show

According to one highly qualified Internet test:-





You Belong in 1972

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!







Drat! I missed the glory days of disco by a mere decade!!! *sulk*

Disco, disco, disco... .. ala Foxxy Cleopatra a.k.a. Beyonce in Goldmember.

*winkz*

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Aaaaaargh!!!

Aaaaaargh!!!

It's terrible. Terrible terrible terrible.

When your brains are rotting away in the desolate concentration-camp-like environs of a no-brainer job.

Absolutely terrible.

Aaaaaargh!!!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Wretched Blogspot!!!!

Ok, ok ... This is a cop out, I know, but I wrote this semi-long entry .. which blogspot ate, chewed into mush and left only the first three lines for me to post with. Crap. Therefore, those of you wanting to read my oh-so-interesting entries *ahem* (yeah riiiiiight..) will have to wait. Sorry!

p.s. Stolen off her page. :o)





You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.



Oh!!! And @}-- !Happy Valentines Day! --{@

May you be loved, always. :o)